I don’t know. I’ve done rational and irrational things w/eating.

I’ve been told by a doctor that my symptoms were anorexia, but he looked at me and I was still overweight. I had lost the first 60 pounds rationally and slowly, the second 60 rapidly through a hack I won’t mention here.

I got so cold I couldn’t get warm. Double sweatpants, coats indoors, severe fatigue (I couldn’t walk more than a few blocks), brain fog. It took months of eating to recover.

I’ve recovered and regained that last 60 pounds.

I have a failed gastric sleeve that I got while manic.

I’m sick of the roller coaster that is my weight. I’ve been over 300 pounds, I’ve been under 200. All in my 40s and 50s when weight loss is supposed to be much harder.

I don’t know anyone in real life that has done all the things I’ve done or fluctuated as much as I have. It coincides w/my moods.

What about you?