Loneliness is a terrible thing. I speak from far too much personal experience. You have nothing to be ashamed of.

If you've been consistently having trouble socializing for a long time, you really might want to consider reaching out for help. There are support groups and such, as well as actual counsellors and therapists. You can search around and see what's in your area.

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Okay, I just cross-checked your post in the depression forum.

I'm going to strengthen what I suggested above. You should talk to your doctor and see where you want to go from there. But therapy and medication might be very helpful at this point. You shouldn't have to suffer like this.

And please don't be "sorry for posting honestly". When I first came across PsychCentral, it helped to read of others with similar problems -- long before I worked up the nerve to introduce myself and start posting. It does help. You'll likely be helping others. And you deserve help too.

Take care.

(Edit: I'm sorry. I just noticed you *are* in therapy and on medications in your other thread. I apologize for my lack of concentration and failure to notice that. I'm still sending my best and reassuring you that you are worth the help.)