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Old Oct 15, 2017, 11:05 PM
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Originally Posted by captgut View Post
Morning couch... or night couch
You told me that seeing T for support is totally okay.
But I can't see him all my life?? Well I can lol, but I mean a "long life". He got tired of me already.
I'll never be "normal" and ready for quitting. But I'll have to leave him...

So... Why prolong the agony?
Because things do get better. My T told me the goal is not to aim for happiness. The goal is being content. When I stopped judging my life in terms of happiness, I realized there were some good things. And looking back where I came from, I have improved. I've also been trying to not look too much at the future, but trying to be in the present. I try to find things I'm grateful for each day. Some days, I might only be grateful for things like food, or a bed to sleep on (which for me is huge because I was homeless at one point).

But things have gotten better. One thing is my T. Our relationship isn't perfect, and like you, I don't feel I deserve her. But she has helped me so much. And she might be one of the first people in my life who hasn't abused me and/or abandon me. She just might actually stay.
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Thanks for this!
captgut, LonesomeTonight, lucozader