Thank you, everyone for your kind words. It's so hard to push myself. I was suppose to get accessed about a month ago. I did go to the crisis center yesterday, but had a horrible experience due to person did not know what she was doing. The woman called me in & she was moving around like she was dancing. She was expecting me to tell her my whole life story. Declined and left. Going to be accessed tomorrow for IOP. Did receive call from pcp encouraging me to go. My nerves are really bad. It's going to be hard to walk in the door.