I think I'm frightened of feeling love again. The hurt from what I thought love was is still so heavy on me. This is why I'm constantly screwing up even casual dating opportunities. I'm afraid of the somethingthing that shouldn't cause fear but conquer it.
This has been heavy on my mind all night. Love was a suggested meditation focus during savasana last night. I barely slept because I can't process this. I've been crying over it. I've been angry. I've got a terribly uncomfortable feeling about it. My stomach hurts. My eyes are red. My chest hurts.
I'm not currently dating anyone, but I may soon be casually dating the woman I've had semi-regular sex with at the gym for months. I feel so confounded, confused, and complex.
Any ideas how to handle this?