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Originally Posted by mollyj
"You can find peace with your friends by finding grace for them. These are people you cared about and loved, yes? And what if they were fated to be together? Would you not want that happiness for the people you love? Would you not do anything for the people you love, include losing them, if it meant they got to fulfill their fate? If you cared for them and loved them before these things happened, doesn't that mean you must still? If you really did care for them truly? Maybe your heart is big enough to let them go.
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What if all I feel for them right now is deep hatred. I don't want them to be happy, I want them to hurt like they hurt me. Does that make my heart small?[/QUOTE]
I don't think that makes your heart small at all. I think you have to have a pretty decent sized heart for it to be hurt so badly.
And I'm really sorry you're going through that. Sometimes things need time to cool off before you can really deal with it. And that's alright too.
I guess I just got to a point in my own suffering where hate wasn't worth it anymore. It's your heart, after all. It's the heart you live with every minute of every day, whether your friends are out there thinking of you or not. Whether they are hurting or happy. It's still your heart that's hurting in your chest in your life. It's still your life that's ticking past while you're focused on them. So hate them as long as you must, but when you're tired of hurting and that sacrifice isn't worth it to you anymore and you need peace, you can find it.
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