Hi and welcome to the forum. You're very hurt by this still , but your current T seems sound so could you work more on this with him/ her ? It's natural to want to let someone know how much they've hurt us , but sometimes this results in restraining orders and such things ( as we've seen here ) I had to work on damage from an Ex T in therapy too. Why is it not resolved in you head after three years ? It is probably linking into other issues and layers of things which need to be worked on.