So last week on my first appointment the therapist said that we'll do 4 session so he can know myself and my issues. Then he'll give me a feedback where he'll tell me if he can follow me etc (but I think he'll follow me).
I realized social anxiety is not really the problem...he said to me something like " i feel like anxiety is not really the problem, sure you can take meds for anxiety but there's something deeper that meds cant solve". And I agree with him now. I think in his treatment he won't use medication if a patient can function. He tend to not make diagnosis, because he works on the roots of the issues (and I'm fine with this!).
I'm dealing with social anxiety since I was 15. And other problems, low self esteem, anguish, emptiness, hidden anger etc...but no one noticed because I looked normal, functioning. others see me as "gentle, shy ,smart, without problems" I studied, went to university, passed exams, speak in public, did apprenticeships. And my depressive episodes come only when I get triggered by certain events. But then when these events are finished, depression and suicidal thoughts disappear and my energy is normal again.
So I think I don't need meds. Even tho I suspect he wont prescribe meds, I'm worried that he'll ask about them. I always lived without them, and no one noticed my mental health issues. I dont' want meds because I can control myself. Do you think I can explain this to the therapist (assuming he'll talk about them)?