I also keep getting accused of trying to hookup on FB by friends of females. This pi55e5 me off. They are friends and that's it.
I made a very long post explaining that I'm not doing that and that I'm finally grieving my marriage. One person reacted, which IS one. Others just ignore my heartfelt posts most times. I'm really just spent with people overall sometimes. My trust is mostly gone and I don't know when I'll get it back.
I asked for any of my friends to please go to the gym with me today, free. No answers, as usual. It's my favorite thing to do, because there's yoga.
Trying to relax, I meditated again earlier, started crying profusely and forgot to breathe and passed out on the candle, burning my nose a little and my scruffy beard a lot. Gotta shave it off now.
I never thought getting over an evil ex would be hard. Never this hard. I just want to be held by anyone, but I'm too messed up in the head and heart for anyone to want to do that. I'd pay somebody even, but I'm too broke.