Your message was written at 3:43 - 3-4 hours isn't exactly staying strong. You need some help we can't seem to provide here - we've made all kinds of suggestions, appealed to your logic, etc. In the past week you got a guy to smoke who'd never smoked before, your girlfriend isn't dealing with you, & you've apparently lost your new job. Your addiction is telling you everything is OK...It isn't JessLynn. Please look in to rehab or an N.A. meeting. We're here to supplement whatever help you decide to get, but I hope you get it before it's too late.