I’m not sure if this post is relationship, sexual, emotions, personality place or what.

I’m feeling GOOD! And I’m embarrassed to admit, it’s because my h and I had sex.

I wish I understood what is really at play here: this is the strangest cycle of abuse or something unnamed.

Right now, I feel like the depression has lifted. I feel fine and functional. I am just cherishing this feeling.

I feel loving toward him and thankful we are still together.

It’s miraculous this happens. It’s happened before, too.

As good as I feel now, I feel ten times worse when things get bad.

I think this is codependent relationship then maybe...

I’m just reporting that I am mentally and emotionally feeling 100% different!

I’m not sure what to make of it, and I am humbled and perplexed.