35. Too old for this. But until i have to live with them cause i cant afford a place of my own... it will be this way.

I feel as if my mom was taking possession of my body. She is everywhere, me left in a corner with too little space to survive, im suffocating. There almost isnt any room left for me.

This reminds me my CSA (psychologically) so much. I feel smothering. Almost violated.

But its like i cant say this because these are my feelings, maybe not what happens in reality because my mom gives me a lot of freedom. It is not much what she does but what she feels that makes me feel this way. This invisible chain is breaking me, dragging me down, making me sink.

Im almost crying. Im SO tired of this. Thinking about how could i end this...
Thank you for answering, it helps a lot.