So today I met with my pdoc to see if the new med (imipramine) was helping. I posted earlier about how terrible this med was making me feel. The insomnia and intense anxiety is really wearing me down. Since it was a very low dose, my pdoc didn’t believe me. She thought the depression was just getting worse. I had already told her I don’t feel depressed. This is not the first time she has insisted I’m depressed when I’m not.

She kept pushing and pushing to convince me to stay on the imipramine, that my symptoms were depression and we should increase the med. She tried to talk me into one more week and I finally broke down and said I couldn’t take this for another week. She ended up letting me discontinue the imipramine and instead she raised my seroquel, but I feel bad because I could tell she was frustrated.

I am generally compliant when it comes to doctors but more and more I’m finding doctors discounting how I feel and basing treatment on their own (wrong) perceptions. I respect her education and experience but wish doctors would respect my experience in return.

I just hope I sleep tonight.