Great job on being so consistent with your meds! 3 Ts can be wrong. Some are bad, some we just dont work well with and thats ok. I dont have many suggestions for going without one. I think you are probably better off to continue trying to find one that understands you and can really help you if that is an option at all. If not do you have a crisis line where you are? That might be good for if you need help in the meantime