I see the psychiatrist today. This afternoon. Apparently I have to fill out papers beforehand and then I see the psychiatrist. Maybe fill out forms describing my symptoms? Who knows. Appointment is supposed to be an hour and a half long. I don’t know if they’ll want to see me again in a month or what I’m just nervous about it all.

I’m also trying to figure out how I feel. I’m eating better for sure but I’m still not 100% in that regard. I feel this lingering paranoia and delusional thinking in the background waiting to come forward. Listening to music is just making me go closer. Like I can almost hear messages in the music but they’re kind of blocked.

Do I feel depressed do I feel stable do I feel hypomanic I don’t know I’m so confused. So confused.