I keep cancelling T appointments so I can go to the gym more. I definitely do need the therapy but the gym is more immediate feeling better. I'm at the gym now, elliptical, then to yoga. I'm in the depressive side of bipolar right now and don't want to go to therapy at all. He makes me cry. Ok ok. I'm crying anyway, even during exercise and savasana. I just get enough sweat going to cover it on the machines but during savasana and daily meditation my body does it anyway sometimes, regardless of my mood. I need better meds but I'm on the last of it all for mood. I've had most of the dangerous reactions to everything and some of them just quit working altogether.
Should I keep cancelling? The expense financially is too much for me. My account will be overdrafted by $200 on the first already. Being on SSI, it means I'm broke before I get paid because of my other bills. I'm going to see if they'll buy my plasma just for gas money today