I think my first symptoms we're on the hypomania side when I was around 9 and 10. I remember having vivid ideas about things I wanted to do that were unrealistic. I also spend a lot of time imagining my life and making up elaborate stories about things I did, that I didn't really do. I believe it was my way of escaping reality and all the abuse I was going through. But then around age 13 and 14 I remember be severely depressed and (trigger) planning to end my life (Trigger). I think abuse is what tipped the depression scale that far towards the end. But then after that I started going to this church and hypomania set in once again having me believe that I had a special mission from Jesus. Never suspected anything was wrong with me back then. I mean I did purposefully hide my issues from my family. So I guess I knew something was off. I wore the mask very well and I still have trouble taking it off. Ever sense I've been up and down. Was diagnosed at age 24.