I'm glad that you've resolved to not go to the worksite so often on your days off. Also I'm very glad that relations with your supervisor seem to be normalizing. It seems that this supervisor is indeed a person well worth admiring. You are lucky to be on a job with a supervisor of such maturity and good judgement. Use this as a learning experience, as I think you are starting to do.
All of us grew up depending on feedback from others to know when our behavior is out of line. That doesn't mean we should always conform to how others think we should act. Some people are bad influences. But I think you do have some good judgement about that already. I see that in who you picked to admire. Sounds like it was a good pick. I think you can trust the feedback from this supervisor to steer you in the right direction.
Changing habitual behavior is very hard. Ask any smoker who wants to quit smoking. But it's worth doing because, without self-control, you will get nowhere in life and you will be disliked by a lot of people.
I'm glad it's all good now at the job. Work on noticing when your behavior is excessive and using more self-control. This is a process of personal growth. You will be the winner, if you cultivate better habits and grow in maturity.
I see there are a ton of videos on Youtube explaining issues with Asperger's. Many are created by Aspies, themselves. Check them out. You will see Aspies role-modeling appropriate, effective behavior. Managing your condition is more worth the effort than you have been realizing. It can lead to you having a better life.
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