For me, it's a combination of external motivation, and how I'm feeling about myself. When I'm feeling depressed or drinking, I don't care. I just stay in bed, often wearing the same pj's for days, don't shower, don't brush my teeth etc. It's really kind of embarrasing to admit.
If I have to go out somewhere, I'll do the minimum to clean up, shower, wash my hair, brush my teeth put on the cleanest clothes I have ( I really struggle to do laundry).
When I'm feeling good about myself, I want to look good, so i'll do laundry more often, wear jewelery, still no make up though, but I'll pay a bit more attention to my hair.
Cleaning is also something I struggle with. Thank God I live with a room mate who is a neat / clean freak. She insists we clean the common areas of the apartment at least once a week, and clean up after ourselves in the kitchen immediately. So my apartment is mostly nice. My room whole other story - it could be featured on an episode of hoarders. It's like I don't feel like I deserve a nice environment. then I'll get a burst of motivation, take some of the garbage out, and do a few loads of laundry. But it's a constant uphill battle.
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn.
"If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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