I appreciate the posts above.

I feel like I need some professional to understand that I'm coming apart. Even if there's nothing anyone can do for me. My experience going to the public psych facility in my city has been so frustrating that I feel loath to go back there. Then, again, they did help me last year and figured out what was going on with the anemia.

I just dread going over there and them startung with the usual head game they play: "So what is it you want us to do?"

I'm going to lie down and see if I can sleep. I feel awful sleepy.