I got really anxious this morning. I knew I needed to quit the retail job. My boss was just really intimidating me and I did not like how few hours I was getting.

I was very anxious and I decided to just quit right then. I walked into work and I asked to talk to her. She said sure and we went into her office. I said “I’m really sorry, but I’m going to quit.” She said “May I ask why?” And I told her that she intimidates me and that’s why I go so slow and why I’m so anxious all the time. I told her “this isn’t the real me. I don’t act like this any where else.” She said “I’m sorry you feel like this. I know I don’t treat you any differently” (I didn’t even say she did.) then she said “well good bye and good luck” She said it in a very cold and unfriendly way. I left and started sobbing in the car. I asked my mom to take me to the hospital. She suggested I call someone instead.

So I dialed the clinic I go to for therapy and group. Since it was the early morning no one was there and I dialed the number for a crisis counselor. He said it’s best to just immediately start job searching and to see if I could up my doctors appointment to a sooner date.

So I started job searching and I filled out three job applications. 2 for warehouse jobs and another retail job. When I was filling out the second warehouse. application I got an email from the first and she wanted me to come in and fill out some paperwork because they had immediate job openings. I went in and filled out a bunch of paperwork including benefits and other stuff. She gave me her card and told me to call her when I was ready to start. I think that’s incredible that I quit my crappy part time job and got a full time job with benefits 4.5 hours later.

I called her and said I’d start on Monday.

I called HR at my old job at 12:30 to confirm that I was not working there anymore. She was pretty cold and unfriendly. It made me sad because we used to get along really well.

I understand I should of given my two weeks notice and that I basically abandoned them. I just couldn’t deal with it. I wanted something different with more hours. Also that 12 hour Black Friday shift was just eating away at me even though it was more then a month away.

then at 2:15 I got a call from the retail store and they wanted to set up an interview for tomorrow.

I think I have a shot at this retail job because I have an open availability and I have experience in this sort of business.

So I have to make a decision if I get an offer at the retail job if I want that job or the warehouse job.

I know I should of given my job warning before I quit and I feel bad that she turned some of the people against me, but things are working out a lot faster then I thought they would.

I just have a lot of mixed emotions.

Does anyone have any comments?