So I quit smoking 2 weeks ago while inpatient for PTSD and bipolar depression. I was confident about quitting even when I was depressed. Now tonight, not so depressed anymore so i had an even BIGGER urge to smoke. I thought, "Well I'll only have two or three cigs a day. I guarantee that's not going to happen. At least that's what the smart part of my brain says. I often don't shower, do my hair, shave, go biking, read a book when I'm depressed. It's like as someone with mental illness, I do the opposite of what I'm supposed to do. I know this is a big problem with us bipolars. Anyone else struggle this way?