I don't see a point anymore. Your comments are lovely and you are all good people to spend your own time writing to me. But it's wasted on me. I have no point. I will only have a life is I make one, but i am not able. I am sorry to be a disapointment to everyone, for not trying. I caanot figure out where I'm going. I don't have the energy to do anything, I will probably be here in the same place physically and mentally for years to come. Only I'll stop my misery being heard.