I can see both sides. Diagnosis can shape your future and might lead down wrong paths with treatment I can see that. But not getting a diagnosis can **** with you because the uncertainty.

I just feel lost like I’m literally crying right now I just wish I had something to tell me ‘this is what this is this is why you are the way you are’ the uncertainty kills me. I feel invalidated because I feel like to a point I wasn’t taken seriously.

I should be happy right now because I have a job offer and I have the right to medical care and I live in a happy home but I’m upset right now instead.

If the report she sends to my regular doctor is anything different than what she told me I’m honestly gonna be pissed. I feel like a rag doll just being shoved around and thrown away.