Nowhere,
Thanks for your reply, it means alot. My tagline...you know I was looking for a good one and so many have such good ones here. I like it too. I seems true. Maybe your right, maybe I should try to remember it right now and think of this as part of the journey but dang!!!
You know I really have made an effort. I am good with makeup and hair and beauty stuff so I invited everyone for a "gilrs nite". We colored hair, painted nails, did makeup, cut hair. It was fun even though I did most of the coloring, cutting and makeup and I didn't get alot out of it myself. I even waxed all the girls' eyebrows. I said we should do it every three weeks and everyone agreed we woulld each take turns doing the hosting but then I never heard a word about it.
As for my interests and joining clubs and such. I could do that but the language is a HUGE problem here. It's hard enought to understand but in Norway they have so many dialects and in the area where I live appearantly it is the hardest and strangest. So basically after I learn the "official" norwegian (by the way they have 2 official languages) then I have to learn the dialect which is so different from what I am learning. I cant understand hardly a word when my husband is talking with his friends. I find it REALLY irritating.
I get the impression that people are intimidated by me....just because I am good. That I guess is my confusion on my way to understanding.
I do just need one person who can be my friend and just be there. I miss laughing, girls nite out, just hanging out and talking.
I sometimes think that maybe I was meant to be alone. It sure seems that way but I can't hardly believe that could be true. I have so much I want to give and share that I can't believe I am not meant to do that with someone. I am NOT giving up, someone HAS to love me!! Ha Ha Ha!!!
Thanks for the hugs and the understanding.
Heidu

Every path to a new understanding begins in confusion- Mason Cooley