<font color="purple"> (((( HUGS )))) - </font>
Oh sweetie I am so sorry that you are going thru so much in your life right now and that you are hurting while your family has fallen apart.

Please accept my ((( hugs ))) and know that you are being thought about...... now as far as advice go - I think you just have to step back and let what has to be be - for others have their own feelings to deal with right now - before it can get better.