I would definitely speak to the doctor who prescribed all of your medications. It’s possible they are side effects from the medications. It’s also possible that they’re not the right medication for you and the concerns you’re currently having. Are you receiving any type of therapy or counselling?? Some of the concerns your expressed should be addressed as soon as you can. I can’t imagine how stressful it must be to almost be another person for the day, to disassociate like that. I hope you can find the right kind of help you need, because there are so many different kinds. Just remember that you are not alone in this fight.