First of all I live in korea and the education is pretty messed up here. I'm just so overwhelmed right now because I have like 5 assignments piled up..

Let me tell yall about my schedule..

Mon/Wed I have 3 hrs of english
Tue/Thu I have 3 hrs of math
Fri I have 1 hr of Chinese / 3 hr of english debate
Sat I have 3 hr math / 3 hr korean literature
Sun i have 2.5 hr science.

These are all after-school academies.

I do math 3 years above my age, and pretty similar in science. and it's HARD.

COMBINE ALL THIS WITH 8 HOURS OF SCHOOL EVERY DAY + SCHOOL EXAMS (i have to keep my grades perfect) + HOMEWORK FROM ALL THOSE ACADEMIES PLUS SCHOOL.

I don't know how long i can keep this going and it's physically / mentally killing me.

aaaand the thing is, this is considered close to AVERAGE. It's a pretty competitive neighborhood i live in, and yeah. this is average and I'm FALLING BEHIND IN MATH.

I'M DOING SOMETHING FREAKING 3 YEARS ABOVE MY AGE, BUT THE OTHER KIDS TO HIGHER.

I logically know I DON'T suck at math, but everyone else makes me feel that way and i don't know, i have to keep EVERYTHING perfect and it's driving me crazy.

Tbh I want to pursue art or music, I sincerely think it'd make me happy and I do have a bit of talent but my parents don't like it.

I have to be absolutely PERFECT if I want to get in a good high school, which will help me get into a good university, which will ultimately make me happy according to my parents but why can't i just be happy now??

I'm trying to learn guitar and practice watercolor right now and i really like it but it's really hard to squeeze all that into my schedule.

I'm a bit overwhelmed, all this with anxiety, depression and messed up parents is driving me crazy, please help.