As has been true the past few mornings, this morning the tinnitus seems awfully loud on the left side of my head. This symptom is worst when I first wake up. Today seems the worst it has been. I feel almost frantic to escape this.

I feel like going back to the psych hospital and telling them that someone has to at least try to help me or . . .

Threats are no good. Psych facilities hear threats all the time. They are not impressed by threats. I tell myself to just cool down and stop making a big deal out of this . . . that it is me making this worse than it has to be.

The home health aid is here now.

I am telling myself to just stop being desperate and just rely on the passage of time to make things okay. Periodically, I get bad spells, and eventually they go away. So this should too.

When I lie down this noise in my head gets worse.