Have you ever disappointed your T? How and why?

I feel like I've disappointed my T recently. She must be frustrated. She has been helping me find ways to handle my non-compliance with medication, and yet, I keep failing at it. I just end up right back where I started... I take her advice, use it for like 2-3 weeks, then stop using it. And since I have bipolar disorder, well, the med withdrawals always trigger an episode, and then I have to be honest with her about what I did so that I can get help again. But she probably feels like a broken record. *sigh*

It sucks. I feel like a failure and that I'm never going to get better because of my own stubbornness and laziness.