Hello

You may have seen my previous post. An argument with my husband became out of hand and I ended up calling the cops on him. He was arrested and taken to jail, charged with three misdemeanors and we are on a no contact order for what looks to be a few months. I have told my parents and everyone has been nothing of supportive of me and for that I am eternally grateful.

I do believe our relationship can be salvaged provided he gets lots of help, which the court is offering him a diversion program that will drop his charges and provide lots of counseling, anger management and parenting classes. But we also need time to work on this together. Which can't happen if I can't talk to him.
I know he is remorseful and I am not worried for my safety at this point ( I mean in terms of retaliation or anything like that).

This has been THE worst few days of my life. I've done the gamit of feeling guilty, sad, angry, and really at the end of the day I just want to see him. I feel like a situation that got out of my hands at home has become a HUGE situation that's out of my hands but now with lots of people involved. I am really unsure of my choice to call and I'm really unsure how I am going to make it these next few months.

I'm not sleeping or eating, I'm inconsolable,shaking, throwing up nothing, going through bouts of sheer panic. I have a therapist but I just need more advice. Has anyone been in a situation like this ? What do you do when you feel like your life has crumbled around you with no end in sight. It feels like my world is ending.

Thank you