First strong urge in a while today. Trouble at home that was finally discussed last night but the discussion didn't lead to a happy place. Still was cordial afterwards and this morning, but a mundane conversation just turned frosty/snippy. I am not about to give in to the urge. It just surprised me. It wasn't really out of the blue but it was intense. A few "RI spots" (CBT tidbits) rolled through my head and actually kinda worked. I didn't attack the urge; I minimized the impact of the event that I was worked up about. That distracted me and my first reaction ("everyone is entitled to their initial flare") is what triggered the urge but it was being worked up about it that would have fueled it. I "removed the danger from the situation", tried to "be self led, not symptom led" and remembered that "calm begets calm; temper begets temper". We still have some problems; trite little sayings won't fix that. But letting every little reminder of it turn into a flash point won't help and could lead to other troubles.
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|Up and down
|And in the end it's only round and round
|Pink Floyd - Us and Them
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|bipolar II, substance use disorder, ADD
|lamictal, straterra
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