I wish, so much, I could sleep for ever. I’m not “good enough” to be a human. I was a mistake from the minute I was born. If I had been born into a family of bears I’d be dead long ago. I’m old ugly and .... the most worthless human on the planet. I deserve nothing but pain. If I knew a way to end this miserable stupid existence I would. But I’m too ****ing stupid. No wonder the “family” hated me. (And still hate me ) They are “normal” (Narcissists and sociopaths) and I’m a freak . I deserve every bit of that hate, all that pain. The most worthless stupid “human” on the planet. I deserved to be, literally, tossed into the gutter (and worse) (and they had to keep telling me that but they were “right” )Why don’t I ****ing drop dead. I’d be doing the world a favour. I’m so ****ing useless stupid nothing

I should never forget to apologize for breathing oxygen and that I’m the most disgusting “human” in the world