please get feeling better. I can't understand what you r going through. I no longer talk to my brother whom I helped many times from being homeless. He is posting private things about me that is no ones business along with my 3rd cousin. My stepdaughter told me to stop crying when I finally started to mourn over the death of my mother and only contacts me for money or favors. Her husband, my stepson is in jail and truly appreciates me. I have hardly any friends and when I need to call someone to talk to. No answer. I am very lonely, yet I try to remain hopeful and think that someday someone will be there for me to cry on their shoulder and be a true friend. I am lucky to have a priest in my life whom I love as a father. He is one reason I keep going and he always tells me I am a good person even when I don't feel like it.

Don't give up you have a purpose, you are in this world for a reason, try to stay strong. Try to remember if you can get through these hard times, you will get stronger and stronger. The fact you are hurting emotionally proves you have a heart of gold. Please get better