Same as the previous posters.
I am confused, you set a goal, something you felt you needed to do, to better yourself.
And then at the first sign of a challenge to your convictions, your folding?

Look man, it's up to you, but if age has taught me anything,it is, when someone spills their guts to someone they don't even know.
Rarely do good things follow.

All the best bud.