I appreciate each and every post above. It means the world for someone to believe me that I've been in a bad jam mentally.

Last night I felt like the staff at the psych crisis unit thought I was just taking up their time undeservedly. I felt like they just wanted to get rid of me. Well - just about any time I've ever gone over there, it's been this same story. I leave feeling even way worse than when I walked in. Then I vow to never go to that place again. It takes an incredible amount of psychic pain to convince me to approach them.

I'm not so bad off now.