Age hasn't taught me a thing. I've only been what I thought I should be, not what I thought I should be. Right now I don't know what I should be. I need to live in the moment, regardless of what I think I should want. I know this makes no sense. It doesn't to me. I'm not thinking about it. I'm not calculating. I'm not planning. I don't want to. I want to feel as light and free as those that seem to just throw caution to the wind always, and I have no reason not to. I'm going to see what happens, cautiously. Not in fear, but in caution. I know how things have gone in my past and I always did what I should, not what I wanted. We've loosely agreed to meet up after I'm done at the gym tonight and we'll just have to see what happens. I'll get a better feel for what kind of person she is by meeting her in person. I will not sleep with her tonight, I promise.