good luck with the therapy. I hope it works out.

as for being with someone, well, that's something I don't want (not yet)

I have never kissed someone (their, I said it, no shame), and I have never been on a date.

these things are.. well, though I feel ashamed about it (because people my age and younger than me have at least kissed someone), at present I don't want it- and I feel it would be forced.

as for dating, well, when ever i'm with someone (even just with friends), it all comes out wrong- like a cry for help, like I am really suffering- and I know I am, I know that, but I also know their are people worse off