Damn, I'm so sorry that your T isn't easy to access for you as well

I wish he'd offer you out of session contact. Many of us with childhood trauma from abuse do better with it.

(And while I understand, deeply understand that you believe "nothing" happened to you and that you don't have "real problems"...I don't agree. You did have horrible stuff done to you and you weren't protected or seen or heard or loved. Your pain and problems are very real. Capt, I believed the same of myself for many years...made so many posts about it on the couch...and I know you wouldn't say "nothing" happened to me or that my problems aren't real *hugs*)

I've never dared to ask for her work email. I already type and print long letters for her to read and message her instagram (with her permission). I don't think she can do / is willing to do email therapy.

I think she offered a phone check yes, if no slots open up - not very sure what her "drop you a line" means. One problem is it's the clinic staff who'll check if slots open up, not her. She said she'd instruct them but I know they can forget. I had so much trouble with community mental health for my meds recently because of something similar.