(((((Sister)))))),
No need to be sorry. I'm so unsure of myself as of late. I was soooo worried that I might have upset you. This is something I have been and need to continue working on in therapy. I'm always afraid that the things I say/do make others angry. I'm so worried right now that people whom I consider friends and care for (especially T) will find me/my neediness annoying and cast me adrift.

I have the recurring nightmare that everyone is on the edge of the North American continent, on the beach. I have been put on a raft made of sticks, sticks that are split at the ends like me. I am able to float because I'm not whole, I'm empty. The people standing on the continent are celebrating. They are not looking my way at all. I am being taken out by the current. I'm being torn from all of my attachments.

Anyway, LOL, I'm sure that cheered everyone up. Sister, I love your sense of humor! I can't tell you how much your posts have cheered me up. I love the fact that you are a hippie! That you take the peaceful way. I wouldn't have it any other way. And I feel relieved that you haven't cast me adrift. I thank you for that. And all others.