@Jennifer - Thanks, I am due an appointment next week to get evaluated.

@Winterbritt - Thanks, I did write a personal blog from 2006 onwards and it amazing how much sadness and hopelessness I have blogged there over the years.

I have written other updates about bike rides and general stuff, but there were loads of good things also that happened which I should be grateful for.

I will make a conscious effort to do that from now. Will keep a daily journal where I will make an attempt to have gratitude for the things I have and the experiences I have and to write positive things that happened on that day.

Thank you again for sharing your own experience and all the suggestions. You have a very nice website, and I will explore it more, I get the concept reading about retraining your brain and the winterbritt project.

Thanks again.