I have a terrifying fear right now that a special upcoming moment will be ruined by anxiety or a brand new mental illness. Currently I had thoughts about dwelling on anxiety, but now I am terrified of getting sensorimotor OCD. I've had this fear slightly before as I was practicing mindfulness because I remembered a story of a guy who developed an obsession with his breathing after practicing mindfulness. But now I have had this fear again whilst practicing mindfulness and because there is a very special moment coming up this fear has now heightened. For now I am just having obsessions that I'll get it, but what if those fears actually turn into sensorimotor OCD!?