That said, things are still going fine at my other job (retail). It's the same supervisor as it was the first time I worked there. I used to look up to her too and she found it intrusive, so she told me to quit. Now I have no interest or feelings for her at all, which is why things are good. I'm almost 5 years there and it woulda been 6 years if I hadn't left that company for a year.

She let me back bc
1. I didn't stalk her as bad as I did my fast food supervisor. I didn't have a car back then and couldn't always get a ride there on my days off. And she MADE me leave after my shift even though many times, I wanted to stay.
2. After I left, I didn't contact her at all so she didn't feel stalked.

That said, I don't feel like blaming anyone. Before, I woulda thought they were horrible people for not understanding that I look up to her. They told me it had nothing to do w/ looking up to her. They don't like that I follow her constantly. But I refuse to paint myself as a victim and other people as horrible people. That has done me no good. I was wrong. They weren't.