Thank you , sister, and I LOVED those choose-your-own adventure books and read them to my son! thanks for that reminder

The chapter was actually chosen unconsciously by my dream. I could have said I didn't know what the dream was about or kept it to a dream about therapy, but I chose to let her in and tell her about the IRL events.

Something that came out was that I think that everyone has a dark evil terrifying side to them and it will come out sooner or later, and that the closer I get to them the more likely it is that it will come out.

She asked very gently if I thought that about her. And there I was back in the "deer caught in the headlights" stupor again. But I was able to recover and say that I did think that about her in that I worry I will disgust her and she will send me packing.

I guess therapy is like a choose-your-own adventure in that we are choosing a different ending via therapy.