Sigh...depression is really bad today. I’m fighting urges to overdose and to hurt myself. Fortunately I’m at the end of the month on my meds so I only have a small supply. And I intentionally don’t keep things like razors and box cutters in the house. I could break a glass but that’s too much.

I had another hospital dream last night, thank god no self harm though because that would have messed up my whole day more than it already was.

I distracted myself by grading tests. Now I’m talking to the guy I’m seeing. That’s helping distract me too.

Maybe tomorrow I will wake up and be fine.