You chose to get out of your way to be around them all the time.
That is very excessive. You used the word ‘all the time’. That is excessive. Please try to understand that.
May I please point something out? Why do you insist on repeating the same trend? You keep on saying that people you ‘look up to’ (which may not be the most suitable wording in your situation) eventually pull away from you.
Do you see how clear the message is here? If you keep on acting the same way, the result will most likely be the same. Especially in interpersonal relationships.
You are not doing anyone a favor by looking up to them. You are making it sound like they are so privileged. They are not. No one is.
I look up to Mother Theresa and the teenager in next town looks up to his gang member brothers. They are merely personal choices and shouldn’t be given much importance.
I know a lot of people, including myself, who can care less if someone looks up to him/her or not.
I am suffering from chronic major depression and anxiety and I know how difficult it is to work much harder to keep my self in check. So that my relationships aren’t impacted and that my condition isnt a burden on others.
No one has to deal with my problems. I have to keep my condition in check. I almost lost a job because of it. So, we all, in this group, understand how difficult it is to navigate life with a mental health condition but we have to try and make it work. So do you.