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Originally Posted by QuietMind
I don't know exactly why she doesn't let clients book multiple sessions in advance. Maybe it's to be fair to everyone irregardless of need. Not that I really "need" her as my symptoms are very well managed.
Or maybe it's hospital policy because I tried once with the appointment hotline and they didn't allow it.
Whenever this happens, it triggers old stuff. Of always being last, less than an afterthought. Always expected to be The OK One, the one whose struggles don't matter because they're not that bad compared to others. Where coping isn't affirmed and just expected because who cares about the cost to me?
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Just because your symptoms are well managed... I drag myself to university daily. Someone just told me that I'm always standing by, leaning against the wall and looking like dying while they talk.
Anyway, just because your symptoms are well managed, it doesn't mean that you don't deserve to see her. Or that you're not suffering or whatever.
I think that her schedule simply wouldn't allow more early scheduling...
My dear, of course it triggers old stuff. Gosh, not seeing T for a week triggers this in me.
Just know that for me you don't have to be the ok one and I deeply care about the cost to you... I really wish your T would be more aware of what her schedule does to you and probably her other clients.