Hugs. That "drag yourself to school / work" feeling really, really sucks.

I derive some purpose in my life due to my job. It's better than home where deadbeat brother and retired dad are anyway.

*hugs* I can picture you standing there, looking like you're dying... *hugs*

I know it's her schedule...she'd told me that maybe the 27 Oct last patient might reschedule or cancel. Turns out they didn't (you have to confirm via text message 1 week in advance because the hospital uses an automated system).

Then she's full all the way till 21 Nov so she booked me on then. Then stupid HR scheduled the damn work course on 20-21st Nov. My boss approved it and they expect me to reschedule therapy. Then she was just so booked till 27th Nov according to the clinic...then another patient took it before me so 1st Dec for me hopefully...

I wish she didn't have so many clients but that's normal everywhere in the public health sector... :/

I know I've never been so ill as to need inpatient (no prolonged ideation, no intent, no plans, etc).but unlike some local acquaintances, I can't just see a friendly GP for a mental health day. I actually have 30 days sick leave I can use in a year (needs a doctor to sign off for each day. Most use it only for physical illness) and I NEVER use them.