You can have those strong feelings Ruby, but just don't act on them.

I am glad you are seeing that it's obsessive and that you want to change the behavior. ((((hugs))))

Your feelings are your feelings, and they are perfectly fine to have. It's the actions that you take as a result of those feelings that must change.

The key takeaway lesson is to not go in on your days off to be around the person you look up to, to not move where you are sitting so that you can be closer to that person, and to not stay late after your shift so that you can be around that person more. Even texting your supervisor is a bit too much. These are all stalking behaviors, and they naturally are going to have negative repercussions and will make people very uncomfortable. And going in on your days off after the DM told you not to was not a good idea, which is probably also what led to getting let go.

I am also glad you will be in therapy regularly to address this. (((Hugs))))