I was prescribed valium 4 months ago, then taken off, then 2 weeks ago put back on it, took it for 6 days, then now taking it PRN. My pdoc called in 10mg 2x day. He says he wants me to take it that much for depersonalization. I just don't know what to do. I could pick it up and take it like that, but it seems to worsen my depression. Or else I could take in PRN, but then it doesn't work as well for anhedonia/depersonalization. I know I am kind of out of it right now, but I feel like that's BECAUSE of benzo withdrawal 3 or 4 months ago. The pdoc said gabapentin and buspar are weak chemicals and don't really work. I was reading on a psychiatric news website that some people take benzos for depersonalization/anhedonia/dissociation for 3-6 weeks, then taper off, and then they are better. I don't know what to do. It feels like depression in a pill. But it does help me keep my apartment clean and do things I need to do. It also lets me go on a nice walk in the woods with my dog and feel at peace. It also lets me drink tons of monster energy drinks all day and not get panicky. Tough choice here. Need some help.